Although my AMI experience was short, an exciting breakthrough happened for me: I apologized to my mother-in-law after hearing Pastor Victor's and Pastor Young's messages on God's constant desire and ability to help me. After their reminder of God's providence, I simply obeyed. I am now asking God for HELP in loving and blessing my mother-in-law, which is a whole different matter. My AMI experience became a catalyst to piercing a spiritual block- refusal to forgive my mother-in-law.
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Michelle Yoo
The biggest breakthrough came when it was revealed through Pastor Sam's prayer that I had a spirit of abandonment since I was a little girl. I had no idea that was something I was struggling with. My parents never gave us away or died. They were simply at work all the time trying to survive as immigrants to America. There were sometimes several days when my little brother and I did not see them because they left before we got up for school and came home after we went to sleep. I now know that the cry in my heart all those years was, "Where WERE you?!" P. Sam said that Jesus was ministering to me as that hurt little girl and that God would release me from the anger I had built up over the years and also that I didn't need to push people away anymore to protect myself. I didn't realize those things were all tied together!
Since I've been back home- I've seen a change in me. Before we left, I knew I was angry at my husband all the time for stupid little things and would even catch myself thinking, "Why am I always so angry with him? Why can't I be sweeter to him?" I didn't want to be that way but it was as if I couldn't help it. I now realize it was one way of pushing him away. Even though part of me wanted to draw near to him- I would sabotage myself and also had constant thoughts that he would leave me for someone else. It's so amazing to me that I just don't feel that way anymore and I'm able to listen and have more patience and not be angry with him about everything. I haven't had thoughts of him leaving me, whereas before the conference it was a constant dread. Though it's been a short time since we've been back home, I can see a huge difference in me and my marriage.
I was so moved that God wanted to heal me and release me from those things in me that were actually hurting me and others. That He would make a way for me to live and love freely through Christ and his finished work on the Cross. There's no other God that I know that can do that in people's lives. This experience just solidifies for me that with God, it's not about religion, it's ALL about relationship. PRAISE GOD!!
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Jean Rho
When the announcement was made in July regarding the upcoming AMI event, I had made up my mind that I was not going attend this year. Work has become increasingly demanding and the thought of taking 2 days off was simply out of the question.
To make long story short, I really had no choice but to be there. Because I was not able to find a replacement drummer for the worship team, I was forced to take time off work and help out.
I approached the conference with much anxiety and uneasiness preoccupied with work. My goal was to simply be there to serve and to help with the conference. I had no expectation on being blessed personally in any shape or form.
However, Pastor Eddie recommended that I receive prayer from Pastor Sam so I got in line and waited…..
Once it was my turn to receive prayer, Pastor Sam simply shared some words that really spoke to me. “You are mine…I have loved you long before you were born….You are unique..an original..”
I don’t’ know why but those words impacted me powerfully, ultimately bringing me to my knees. I didn’t realize how much I needed to hear that from God. I believe it was His way of telling me that I didn’t have to do anything to earn or lose his love and acceptance. He loves me as I am and he is delighted with me, period. At this point, a calming force came over me and provided immense sense of peace and release.
I often lose sight of who I am, forgetting about God’s grace and his unending love. His yoke is light and easy.......
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Aaron Hong
During the conference, there was a prayer time held among four people. A lady from my small group visioned the word "fertilizer," she explained to me that God probably wanted to tell me that He is making me to lay solid foundation for my future by applying fertilizer to the soil so that the soil would be rich enough to grow more fruit.
Then, Min Sun, also came up with John chap.15:"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful." She told me that whatever God is doing in my life He wants the best in me, so that He may cut off some branches because He wants me to become fruitful. She said that I may be working on something, I may not understand why I'm doing this, but God wants me to know that He wants me to work to make the soil rich so that my tree can grow more fruit.
Before I came, I had kept wondering why something happened in the way it happened. I thought that before I beleived in God, or before I relied on God less, I was quite successful, but why after believing in God, the exam I'm taking took me a long time to pass. Sometimes I wonder why, and kept asking God why.
On another occasion after workshop, a few members grouped together and prayed for each other. Person who came up with either word or vision or picture can let the other know what she has seen.
A lady I hardly knew told me that she visioned the marble floor. She told me that floor could probably means foundation. God probably wanted me to lay solid foundation, and through some work I have been doing to achieve this goal. In order to be more useful to God, and to be more effective, God is probably working on me to build this foundation now as a successful work can't be achieved unless I lay solid foundation.
I then asked her what the color of the marble was if she could see? Or if she could see at all? She said it was while colored marble.
The reason that I'm also cc this email to Gahram is because Gahram has been my home in BJ to attend my wedding there last November, and Gahram stayed at my home where the first two floors are used as office. She knows that the ground floor is made of white colored marble. What's a coincidence, right? God is amazing, and God is working on our conference, even working upon our smaller group.
Now, when I think back all the prayers from different persons, I feel they somewhat coincide with each other's, right? I feel that the fertilizer, the vineyard, and the foundation, each of the message has mentioned about the foundation which God is asking to lay so that I can be more fruitful.
Now come back to my previous doubt about how the exam I took I did not pass right away, and did not even pass it within twice. I now know that God knew that during the school time, as I was too busy working for my own company, and busy with other issues, I did not study properly. God had led me to achieve the law degree, but God did not like the fact that I did not study well enough. So He wants me to study more and study harder this time to fill the gaps that I made during my school time because God wants me to bear more fruit from my knowledge.
Initially, I did not want to attend due to limited finances after exam. But Gahram insisted on my attending, and she even sponsored me to attend this conference, as she said that she wanted to invest in me as she felt the urge in her to do so. I feel the urge must come from God.
I feel that I am troumendously blessed by God, and I'm so pleased to have the opportunity of attending this conference. Through this conference, I was drawn closer to God, and I also found the answers from God. I'm also grateful of your church for organizing this event, and I am thankful of Gahram for her investment in me which allowed me to be able to explore more in our Lord's kingdom.
I want to thank you all for your hard work, and I thank God for His awesome plan!
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Jenny Wang
A month before the AMI conference I gave up smoking, not knowing why I just felt I needed to. As the weeks past by I was struggling with a lot of areas in my life, my relationship with my wife, we were arguing real bad. We were fighting in front of the children and brought on a lot of anguish and insecurity to them and our marriage became a little unstable. My business is doing poorly and we are struggling to maintain cash flow. For the first time I have found myself depressed and the weight of it was overwhelming. I did not know how I was going to free myself up to go to the conference. I needed to stay at work and I needed to do something to turn my business around. I could not trust my business in the hands of my employees….but at the same time I really wanted to prepare myself mentally, physically and spiritually to meet the Lord.
I left that Thursday evening for church and I decided “Lord, you are in control and I am going to trust you can run my business better than me”. The first day of the conference I decided to go on a food fast for 3 days. I felt I needed to sacrifice some needs in order for me to truly meet the lord. It was difficult because I was getting real hungry and real weak and I think that’s when God met me. I felt the presence of the Spirit like I have not felt in a long time but it wasn’t just a feeling it was more like the Spirit telling me “I am here” and that feeling stayed with me through out the conference. As each day passed and as we heard from different speakers the blessings kept pouring down on me and I started realizing how self-centered my life has become. Instead of trusting God, I trusted myself and I fell well short of fulfilling anything significant in my life. I remember receiving prayer from Pastor Sam and the next thing I know I was laying flat on my back, I never received prayer where I fell off my feet. I remember him telling me to stay still, do not get excited with big crowds but be still. I received prayer from Pastor Sam again during the inner healing session and he shared with me that “if I want to know the heart of God I will not find it in large gatherings of popular people, instead I will find it in the weak and hungry, like children in Mozambique”
J.P. Moreland talk about Kingdom Powers and that was extremely powerful for me. I feel like the Lord was so ready to use me and all I had to do was trust in him and have faith that no matter what he is in control. Ok, I decided I am not going to go to work I am not going to even call to see how everything is going; I am going to trust the Lord. That evening I also received prayer from another pastor but I forgot his name. I know my wife received prayer from him first and I heard this wild high pitched screeching sound, I thought “oh my goodness, that sounds like my wife” and it was. Much later that night I finally received prayer from him. I was actually the very last person he prayed for that night and I saw how exhausted he was and how each person he prayed over just took so much out of him. I thought this should be quick. Boy when he laid his hands on me I felt electricity shooting up and down my body like a night club. Some of the things he was saying to me were just amazing. He kept saying that I have a creative ministry before me and that this is very exciting time for me ahead. That I will be the spiritual leader of my home and for my children and I will provide spiritual covering for my wife but in order to do this I will need faith, more faith, stronger faith. I don’t know who was more excited from his prayer, me or my wife because as soon as my wife heard that prayer she was crying hysterically.
Well, since the AMI conference I am no longer depressed, I still do not smoke and I trust the Lord with not my business but his business. I know he is in control and I have to have faith, strong faith in order for Him to use me. I continue to listen and hear from him and I do hear him speak and I know he is near and he is training me for something unique. I know I have to read and pray daily with devotional and meditation. I know the enemy is near also and I know he is trying to destroy my relationships, especially the one with my wife but God is in control and I will wait upon the Lord
Isaiah 65:24 and it will come to pass that before they call, I will answer; and while they were still speaking, I will hear.
You see God is in control of my life and just have to have faith.
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Hann Kim
